What I mean is what is inspiring your actions. I've had the opportunity lately, with being off work and out of a relationship, to pay very close attention to the energies and thoughts emanating from my body. I've noticed my actions be colored by old emotions, such as being around my father and the way he subtly demanded to be in total control. I catch myself going back into the mode where I listen very hard for what he would like for me to do and then simply do it, mindlessly, for his benefit. We get caught up in such traps. Not only are there these old patterns of action with those we grew up around, there are other pillars in our courtyards. Many are simply of fear. I want to assault fear because of a realization just after sunrise. I sensed my body as I thought about a project I wanted to do. I can't even remember the project because what was important was how I felt little particles of fear in me. Each time a fear is truly entertained as possible, there is a particle in you that goes along with it. As energy flows from our body, as we send our will through it or through our mind, these particles create resistance. You aren't at your full capacity when you have these things in you. It truly makes no sense whatsoever. Afraid of what? Failure? Bad performance? Bad performance. I think that covers it. Whether it's talking to a girl or guy you like, going for a job interview or heading to your family's for the holidays, fear causes bad performance.
I hope more than anything this stirs something in you. I hope this prompts you to see the sheer ridiculousness of housing these little fears in your body. Do see for yourself! They make no sense! Wouldn't it be better to steer the car without someone constantly saying "you might run off the road, you might hit a car, you might get a ticket, you might you might you might!" That's what these fears we house are like. Address this issue with calm mind and it will unfold before you.
Further, there are others besides fear. These are simply the motivations for action and are usually a little more consciously accessible. What do we want from a situation? Are we there just to make money? Is there any joy otherwise in the matter? Who does this force you to be? There is always a landscape to observe while you drive the cattle, my fellow range riders, whether it's in the people or the mountains or the coffee room, there's something, and far wiser it would be to look for that landscape than to drive oneself insane with a decision that your environment sucks and there's nothing you can do. The former is fine without the latter, such things inspire change, but the latter is damnation to any who think it, really.
So what force is moving your oxcart? Are you pushing it? Hard with the ox up there, isn't it? Feels like that sometimes doesn't it? The mind and body and life moving along, all the while it feels like you're screaming through a soundproof glass and making no difference whatsoever. Yes, I know. This is when the mind is completely out of wack with the true needs of the body. We learn ways to be that are necessary for social survival, and an identity develops. This identity has certain needs, and sometimes those needs are contrary to a healthy physiology and mind. Little drives are setup within based upon needs. Are we acting out of the need to be appreciated and accepted? Whose opinion will be the final say so you can finally actually BE worth appreciation and acceptance?
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